Whilst I’ve generally come to the conclusion that I am unable to work full-time for the time being – and maybe never work full-time again – it’s a statement I’ve truly gotten tired of hearing.
Ha! See that? I made a terrible pun.
It’s not even the fact that I’m tired all the time – although, sometimes that really does drive me nuts.
Instead, it’s the constant comments of, “But you’re always tired.”
Yes, yes I am.
Every action takes energy – energy I don’t always have to give.
Every time I push myself in any way, it can result in things like falling asleep at Disneyland.
Which legitimately happened. Seriously.
Often, it doesn’t take much for my energy to drain – simple tasks can be exhausting for me.
When I do work, I am constantly exhausted. The art of waking up is something I haven’t yet mastered, especially on days where I haven’t naturally woken up.
I don’t need you to remind me that I’ve told you that I’m tired.
I don’t need you to remind me when you ask what I plan on doing, and my response is an earnest “sleeping”, you tell me that’s all I ever do.
If I could have a different life, I’d pick a different one.
But this is the card I’ve been dealt, and this is my life, no matter how boring it may seem to you.